The age of my darkness is coming to an end — perhaps not forever but at least for now. The days are getting shorter, and the air is getting crisper. The birds are calling, and the trees gently whisper. The forest is a place to rest. I have found a place I can feel my best.
Category: Dear Diary
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Fire Me Up – Feelings
At any point in time I woud rather have big feelings, and feel all the things then feel nothing.
Yes I get fired up about things — It should be more alarming that there are people who feel nothing.
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Stop being so polite..
Stop being so polite, and try being honest.
It has recently come to my attention, awareness, or top of mind that I often find myself surrounded by a bunch of people so worried about offending someone, that nobody wants to say anything at all.
Enough with the judgement, can we try to lead with curiosity?
Come from a place of understanding, or wanting to understand. Enough with the judgements, the assumptions, the snarky passive-aggressive bullshit.
Say what you mean and mean it.
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When I was a kid…
When I was a kid:
playdates weren’t so formal, and didn’t always require planning.
i made rainbow pancakes and threw them out the 10th floor window.
we would slide in the mud after big rains in the neighbor’s driveway.
i wanted to be everything and do everything.
i believed anything was possible.
grown-ups had issues, and i had no desire to get there fast.
everybody smiled and said hi when passing in the street.
we would search for stones in the river and cover ourselves in river clay.
that’s what I thought my childhood was. until i had a kid —
To be continued….
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Friday, January 19th, 2024
Current Mood: Optimistic
Current Song: Lines in my face [Chronic Future]It’s Friday! It’s supposed to be everybody’s favorite day of the week.
Here are some of the articles I read today:
Parenting Mantras to raise resilient Kids here
Kids learn better with paper vs screens here
Wealth vs. Rich hereI am working on some projects and decor for 🦖’s room, and her latest things have been her dinosaurs, Dino Ranch (the show) and Lucas The Spider.
Meet the Ranchers here -
Thursday,January 18th, 2024
Current mood: fine.
Current Song: Last Yr Rly Sucked [StayLoose, Blair]In my ban.do planner it said that the sun was entering aquarius this week, it said it a few times, so I googled it.
“sun enters aquarius 2024” → the first little blurb was the following: A desire to break free will become more pronounced when the sun enters Aquarius on January 20, 2024, at 9:07 a.m. ET. Now that the sun is answering to Aquarius’ co-rulers, Saturn and Uranus, there might be an overwhelming feeling to be yourself. However, there could be an underlying sense of restriction. This sparked my curiosity, and made me jump down a brief rabbit hole
I went here because I liked her site name, and the site itself looked specific
https://www.thehoodwitch.com/blog/2024/1/17/pluto-in-aquarius-2024
This original search made me wonder how astrology compares to human design. I have so many friends who are so obsessed with astrology, and horoscopes. I’m not. But i found this article that I have to read still.Apparently they are similar though.
A bit farther down I found this vogue india article. And I dont want to knock on vogue, but I don;t generally consider it to have much authority on matters of the universe. Anyway, read it here. I did scan it briefly, and of course I came across the horoscope part of it. The Libra one is fascinating to me given the context of this exploration.
Libra: Leap of faith
While being the mediator comes naturally to you, the next chapter in your life courtesy of this transit is likely to make you communicate your exact emotions and move out of the ‘solo traveller’ theme of your heart. You are likely to come across many mirrors that will push you out of your comfort zone and make you question where you wish to pour your energies. Thankfully, the universe has your back so everything will work out just fine.When will it happen? “Gear up for an era filled with supportive collaborations where opportunities, connections and a turn of events that support a more altruistic theme of life become pronounced.“
I will come back to this shortly.
I wanted to include some of the handwritten notes I wrote down yesterday when I was trying to clear my head. I have been spinning my “wheels” for what feels like an eternity, but probably for the better part of the last 4 years, trying to find the next path to go down.
So back to the whole Aquarius thing, and all I keep singing in my head is “The Age of Aquarius” lol. https://stylecaster.com/lists/how-aquarius-season-affect-each-zodiac-sign/ and also the pluto being in aquarius via SC is here
https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/2024/01/11642274/aquarius-season-january-2024-meaning-effects
I stumbled upon my annual horoscope via allure here
