This is the first draft of a 2 part post. This is long overdue, but something said, today was the day to share my OG notes. Some of these were semi-transcribed voice notes from some of my first sessions with her back in 2023.
Dear Erin,
I don’t know where to begin. I have thanked you over and over.
first note to Erin (after the energetic essence reading)**
Essence reading note to EPM – HOLY SHIT. I don’t know where to begin. I wish I could give you the biggest hug. I started to listen and read yesterday and immediately started crying (in a good way). So I put it down and waited until Thea went to sleep. THANK YOU. I needed this. I have been following your journey for a bit now, and you have been a light for me. It was not until last night that I realized why. I love your honesty, I love that you bring your true authentic self to the table.
This was exactly how I have been feeling for far too long. I had an intense cry, because every single thing I thought was what you said right after. It was a little surreal to be honest. and not long ago I acknowledged it but still felt stuck. And while I know this isn’t an instant fix and it opened up a whole bag of things I have been trying to bury, I guess I needed to feel heard, and this reading made me feel HEARD and so SEEN. I guess I needed someone to just confirm my feelings, my thoughts, and put it into words for me.
There is so much to unpack for me here. I recently and abruptly “quit” my job and offered them some time as a transition (and also for me to do income). It came out in a burst, and I didn’t feel ready to quit, but apparently my subconscious did. The transition is supposed to be through the end of June and now may extend through July
Side Note: I have always been hesitant about tapping into my energy “stuff”. Maybe because I wasn’t ready to go there, and part of me knows it had to do with being embarrassed/ self-conscious (not the right word).
voice notes transcription below
Thank you Erin P
Okay, so about let’s talk let’s start with a year ago but like 13 months ago, uh my buddy, Johnny Mitchell. Got married in February last year to this fucking awesome, girl named Erin. Um, We’ll go into our backstory briefly in a bit, but, uh, maybe I need to do it now.
The the first time I met Erin was at Erin’s apartment, I got shithoused because I was meeting two of my best guy college friends new girlfriends, at the same time, in the same night… And I felt so uncomfortable. (for context: I used to drink a lot when it came to social situations that was how I “loosened up”.)That was how I became the “fun girl”. Uh, also the girl that didn’t know when to stop.
Back on topic. So Erin and I didn’t really talk. We I’ve started following her online. John and Erin got married. Let me just say I fucking love them, I love her. Uh, She has been the light for me.
Um, And we’re coming up on a year now. I guess of the start of my healing Journey, if you will, um, And forgive me for the Sarcastic tone. When I say healing Journey, I It’s just the language makes me feel uncomfortable. We’re working on that. Back on topic.
I’m going through my journals. So, like A year, literally a year ago, Erin offered a I think, um, it was like a past life regression session. I signed up for it, it was a free thing. I was like, you know what, let me check this out. I wasn’t ready to spend money, I think out of fear, which is dumb, I don’t know why people are so scared of paying for things that help them. Like you spend money on bullshit and the things and the Superficial shit, that you think helps you but it’s really just a coping mechanism anyway.
So I did this past life reggression thing. It took me three tries to do it by myself and I had a fucking trip and it was like an Awakening if you will. So, I followed her, her honesty really helped me give grace to myself and accept that shit is hard sometimes. I’m not explaining this well and I’m trying so hard to not get off topic, but anyway, I did a couple of the free things with her. I finally reached out and I said, “hey, I wanted to do something with you. I’m not sure what” She had a couple offers available at the time. “So I said, I’m interested in this and I’m also interested in this, but I don’t know what’s right for me. Like, what do you think?”
She offered to do a combo session for me.
And that was July 11th, 2023. Um, just so everyone knows. I’m talking right now and it’s it’s March 13th 2024. Anyway, uh In that session. Uh, she told she Told me about human design. Of course I’m like. What the fuck? Here we go. Uh, and then she just Started talking.
Now this girl doesn’t know me very well at this point. She only knows what she’s seen online or what she’s heard from John or our other friends and you know, whatever, whatever it may be. What do I know? Uh, Every single thing she said. Always just like, I was like, are you in my fucking brain?
It was it was like she was in there. Being like, this is exactly how you feel. And she would say exactly how I was feeling before. I could even get the words out. I think the biggest thing that I got from that first call with her, Was. Rest, um, not letting myself rest giving my permit.
Giving myself permission Be myself and do my shit. And I it was like I needed her to give me permission to rest. And honestly, I don’t think that session went how she probably would have intended it but it was everything I needed and then some Um, She’s the reason why I quit my toxic job and I mean that as a thank you.
I am so grateful. She had me put a day on it and I did and I quit, it took me three times. My company was not trying to let me quit. Uh, and I quit. Um, That, that was the end of July, so August of 2023.
And I know this whole post is gonna have to get broken down into a few, but the point of this is that I am so eternally grateful for Erin and showing me human design among other things.
Here we are in 2026, so many things have changed and stayed the same. I have so much more to say on the updated topcs and my latest experiences with Erin.
But I’m going to tap out of this one for now… But i leave you with some ways to learn more about Erin P on your own terms. I would pay her all my money at this point for the snippets of knowledge and truth she shares. She has been a force and guiding light in my life and I am not sure where I would be without her.
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