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  • Erin is Magic. She was and is my light.

    Erin is Magic. She was and is my light.

    This is the first draft of a 2 part post. This is long overdue, but something said, today was the day to share my OG notes. Some of these were semi-transcribed voice notes from some of my first sessions with her back in 2023.

    Dear Erin,

    I don’t know where to begin. I have thanked you over and over.

    first note to Erin (after the energetic essence reading)**
    Essence reading note to EPM – HOLY SHIT. I don’t know where to begin. I wish I could give you the biggest hug. I started to listen and read yesterday and immediately started crying (in a good way). So I put it down and waited until Thea went to sleep. THANK YOU. I needed this. I have been following your journey for a bit now, and you have been a light for me. It was not until last night that I realized why. I love your honesty, I love that you bring your true authentic self to the table.

    This was exactly how I have been feeling for far too long. I had an intense cry, because every single thing I thought was what you said right after. It was a little surreal to be honest. and not long ago I acknowledged it but still felt stuck. And while I know this isn’t an instant fix and it opened up a whole bag of things I have been trying to bury, I guess I needed to feel heard, and this reading made me feel HEARD and so SEEN. I guess I needed someone to just confirm my feelings, my thoughts, and put it into words for me.

    There is so much to unpack for me here. I recently and abruptly “quit” my job and offered them some time as a transition (and also for me to do income). It came out in a burst, and I didn’t feel ready to quit, but apparently my subconscious did. The transition is supposed to be through the end of June and now may extend through July

    Side Note: I have always been hesitant about tapping into my energy “stuff”. Maybe because I wasn’t ready to go there, and part of me knows it had to do with being embarrassed/ self-conscious (not the right word).

    voice notes transcription below
    Thank you Erin P
    Okay, so about let’s talk let’s start with a year ago but like 13 months ago, uh my buddy, Johnny Mitchell. Got married in February last year to this fucking awesome, girl named Erin. Um, We’ll go into our backstory briefly in a bit, but, uh, maybe I need to do it now.

    The the first time I met Erin was at Erin’s apartment, I got shithoused because I was meeting two of my best guy college friends new girlfriends, at the same time, in the same night… And I felt so uncomfortable. (for context: I used to drink a lot when it came to social situations that was how I “loosened up”.)That was how I became the “fun girl”. Uh, also the girl that didn’t know when to stop.

    Back on topic. So Erin and I didn’t really talk. We I’ve started following her online. John and Erin got married. Let me just say I fucking love them, I love her. Uh, She has been the light for me.

    Um, And we’re coming up on a year now. I guess of the start of my healing Journey, if you will, um, And forgive me for the Sarcastic tone. When I say healing Journey, I It’s just the language makes me feel uncomfortable. We’re working on that. Back on topic.

    I’m going through my journals. So, like A year, literally a year ago, Erin offered a I think, um, it was like a past life regression session. I signed up for it, it was a free thing. I was like, you know what, let me check this out. I wasn’t ready to spend money, I think out of fear, which is dumb, I don’t know why people are so scared of paying for things that help them. Like you spend money on bullshit and the things and the Superficial shit, that you think helps you but it’s really just a coping mechanism anyway.

    So I did this past life reggression thing. It took me three tries to do it by myself and I had a fucking trip and it was like an Awakening if you will. So, I followed her, her honesty really helped me give grace to myself and accept that shit is hard sometimes. I’m not explaining this well and I’m trying so hard to not get off topic, but anyway, I did a couple of the free things with her. I finally reached out and I said, “hey, I wanted to do something with you. I’m not sure what” She had a couple offers available at the time. “So I said, I’m interested in this and I’m also interested in this, but I don’t know what’s right for me. Like, what do you think?”

    She offered to do a combo session for me.

    And that was July 11th, 2023. Um, just so everyone knows. I’m talking right now and it’s it’s March 13th 2024. Anyway, uh In that session. Uh, she told she Told me about human design. Of course I’m like. What the fuck? Here we go. Uh, and then she just Started talking.

    Now this girl doesn’t know me very well at this point. She only knows what she’s seen online or what she’s heard from John or our other friends and you know, whatever, whatever it may be. What do I know? Uh, Every single thing she said. Always just like, I was like, are you in my fucking brain?

    It was it was like she was in there. Being like, this is exactly how you feel. And she would say exactly how I was feeling before. I could even get the words out. I think the biggest thing that I got from that first call with her, Was. Rest, um, not letting myself rest giving my permit.

    Giving myself permission Be myself and do my shit. And I it was like I needed her to give me permission to rest. And honestly, I don’t think that session went how she probably would have intended it but it was everything I needed and then some Um, She’s the reason why I quit my toxic job and I mean that as a thank you.

    I am so grateful. She had me put a day on it and I did and I quit, it took me three times. My company was not trying to let me quit. Uh, and I quit. Um, That, that was the end of July, so August of 2023.

    And I know this whole post is gonna have to get broken down into a few, but the point of this is that I am so eternally grateful for Erin and showing me human design among other things.

    Here we are in 2026, so many things have changed and stayed the same. I have so much more to say on the updated topcs and my latest experiences with Erin.

    But I’m going to tap out of this one for now… But i leave you with some ways to learn more about Erin P on your own terms. I would pay her all my money at this point for the snippets of knowledge and truth she shares. She has been a force and guiding light in my life and I am not sure where I would be without her.

    Find Erin P on instagram [@erinpanzarella]
    Check out her resources via her linktree here.

  • The What If Project (an overview)

    The What If Project (an overview)

    CHECK OUT SOME OF THE CAMPAIGN ASPECTS BELOW:

    Welcome to the world of WHAT IF…

    Hi there, my name is Laura Rex and I am trying to buy and restore Cedar Terrace, a 60s Motel Resort in the crossroads of the Catskills, aka Cairo, NY. Welcome to [What If].

    You could call it a social experiment, or a community project. The property was built circa 1956, it’s been sitting for a bit, but it is the most magical little bit of history. I fell in love with the property and the town of Cairo, NY. Through research, I fell in love with the Errante Family, owners from the 1950s-2000s – who originally hailed from Ridgewood Queens, maybe we could have been neighbors!On the logistical side of things – follow along at rexmakescoolshit.wordpress.com – I am updating it daily, and the entire project is meant to be transparent. I am selling everything I have, as well as offering up services to raise the funds.

    The GoFundMe Campaign

    The initial GoFundMe campaign is to get things going, there are a lot of moving pieces. I am selling my stuff and my services. The goal here is to raise awareness and capital to secure the property.

    Shop The Store

    I’m not here to beg, so I’ve whipped up some cool stuff for you to snag! Dive into unique services from my 20-years of adventures, or grab some snazzy merchandise—all to fuel this project’s fire!

    Kickstarter Campaign

    Explore the packages Septeber 1st*. Once the property is secured we will launch our Kickstarter campaign. The goal here is to raise awareness, and fund a large chunk of the initial renovations. We are also exploring NYS grants and incentives.

    Trade or Donate

    Once upon a time people used to trade and barter their skills and services. We are working rapidly to put together the comprehensive list of what will be needed across all phases of the project. If you already have an idea, send it our way, let’s collab.

    Need More Info?

    If the project has piqued your interest, and you would like to explore the details, the numbers, or partner in a different way, shoot us an email at whatifmotel @ gmail.com or drop us a line on the contact page.

    What If It’s A Bummer?

    BAH HUMBUG — But if you were wondering what will happen to the $ if we can’t lock in Cedar Terrace property?

    A) look for a different location in Cairo, NY

    OR

    B) Donate all proceeds to the Cairo Development Foundation. 

  • The Age of My Darkness

    The Age of My Darkness

    The age of my darkness is coming to an end — perhaps not forever but at least for now. The days are getting shorter, and the air is getting crisper. The birds are calling, and the trees gently whisper. The forest is a place to rest. I have found a place I can feel my best.

  • Perspective on Industry Experience

    Perspective on Industry Experience

    Industry Experience Perspective

    Recently I was thinking about resumes, the rules for job applications, the interview process, and the absurdity of what minimum qualifications are theses days. How your experience and experience for a specific industry to Industry.

    And it made me think about how I’ve been in so many different Industries and that’s a large part of the reason I’ve been successful in past roles. Not to mention if I am interested in something, I will absolutely believe I am capable of doing it and learning how to do it on the fly.

    Why do you want someone that’s only been in one industry, or doing the same thing at the same place for like 10 years? That seems unbearably narrow-minded and honestly counterintuitive when you really think about it.

    New hires, consultants, contractors, vendors, etc. are generally brought on when a company is experiencing growth or is stuck.
    You’re bringing them on to either fill a gap, expansion or because of what you think you know about their expertise and experience in a role/industry.

    Too many brands are ignoring the aspect of curiosity.

    A new hire, a new contractor, or any new relationship should bring new things to the table.

    A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE. A NEW SOLUTION.

    Both of those things often come from experience working in different Industries, roles, companies, teams. Someone who can look at a problem differently, flip it upside down and shake it the fuck up.

    That’s the point. The basis of it at least. I will come back to this…

    To be continued – with examples…

  • What Makes A Good Parent?

    In the midst of my increasingly ugly divorce with my soon to be ex-husband we continue to “disagree” on some seemingly universal basics. Now while some of you may be thinking — just don’t talk to him. Move out. Be the bigger person. Please kindly and disrespectfully fuck off. Three years of silence and being the bigger person got me here to this exact point.

    So after a quick google search of “what makes a good father?” for the comic relief, followed by the same search of “what makes a good mother?” it has occured to me that society in this country is FUCKED. (As if we didn’t already know this.)

    Below are the two images of the top things listed for each search as prepared by google.

    As noted these were compiled from various sources across the web. WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FUCK THOUGH?

    *Please note I am fully aware of what MY definition of a good parent is on both sides. We will get to that.

    Can we just talk about the apologize when necessary first?

    To be continued….

  • Dear Parents,

    Dear Parents,

    Last night at Family Night I watched a little girl be inherently mean to my kid, over and over. My kid is 3. In an effort to let her “handle” the situation on her own, I would check in periodically, I stayed close by.

    She looked so sad and confused. And then I just couldn’t.  I told her when she was ready to leave we could go home and have ice cream (yes I absolutely bribed my kid to leave). We left 10 minutes later. 

     We all have varying degrees of what’s acceptable, but honestly this shit is getting old. I refuse to accept the excuses that “boys will be boys, and that’s just how girls are at that age.”

    WHAT? Nope. Sorry. No thank you.

    Can we stop making excuses for our kids behavior when its shitty? It seems like as parents we often excuse certain things because it is a direct reflection of ourselves, or we become aware of how our words and actions have shaped our own kids consciously or not.

    I believe we can do better. I know for a fact that a 4 year old saying “You make no sense, I am going to ignore you and everything you say” while simultaneously blocking and pushing a younger kid didn’t come from nowhere. Not allowing my kid to try and make friends with any other kid is shitty.

    let’s take a minute and think of how we can be supportive of each other and our children. I implore you to approach life from a place of curiosity and understanding vs. judgement and assumption.

    The displays of judgement and snobbiness that are infecting this neighborhood are ugly. Your kids see you. We all see you.

    To be continued…

  • Memory Exercise

    Memory Exercise

    For now I am calling this a memory exercise, and perhaps it should come with some sort of warning, because it may or may not unpack baggage.

    Close your eyes and think back to when you were a kid, perhaps sometime in elementary school. Try to find a memory of an event, a holiday party, a school assembly, county fair, but it would be a place where you would be with your family, your parents or caregivers.

    Pick one. They are deep in conversation with their friends, chit chatting away. You catch a glimpse of your name as you pass by, and it peaks your curiosity. What is being said? How is your parent describing you? What words or tone can you hear, feel, or remember?

    This happened to me recently, trying to think back on how my mother used to speak about me, how she spoke to me publicly, privately, how she spoke about me with one friend, vs. how she spoke about me when she thought no one was listening, when she thought I wasn’t listening or when she thought I was… A series of words came up.

    To be continued…

  • WORD SHIT: Willing

    Willing

    [ˈwiliNG] adjective

    ready, eager, or prepared to do something.

    Today, someone said they were “willing to keep trying”, and within the surrounding context, this was immediately received with a negative tone. Upon looking up the definition, it made me wonder how the word willing has become so overused and/or misused that it now often seems more related to a bare minimum, least amount of effort type situation.

    Depending on where you find your version of the definition of willing, it can be read or misread as something viewed negatively, other words that came up were agreeable, and I realize the comparisons and examples used for the word willing came down to doing something of one’s own ‘will’ versus being forced or coerced into something.
    I found this interesting snippet, which is kind of what I am getting at I suppose:

    “Willing means you will do something if it is necessary or if it is asked of you, even if you don’t particularly want to“

    To be continued….